Even If You Didn't Know Teaser/Preview 2

"Are you okay?? I-I'm sorry...I didn't mean to-" "No,it's okay..I'm fine, don't worry"..
   I said to a figure,while picking up the fallen books. I didn't bother to look at him,because I don't care, of course. Then, he squatted beside me and he pick up the books eagerly. Then, I lift up my face and look at him, instinctually, as my conscience told me to do so. 


  I feel a sudden ache in my heart. 'I'm a bad person',a word suddenly appears in my mind. 'I'm a cruel person', 'I'm a fool' ,those words keep hitting my heart, like a bullet that shoots my hollow heart,deeply. A memory suddenly playing in his mind..
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  A moment when I read a letter that makes me take a feeling that I afraid of;regret, wherever I go. Even I try to let go of the emotion, it wouldn't leave me alone, and even if it does, I couldn't help but feel empty again; that's how it eats me,slowly but the pain was unbearable.


------So,what's the content of the letter? We'll find out soon--------

귀한 (Precious)

Another FF that I want to share~^O^
  "귀한 (Precious)" by  seonqyeols~!
daebak as always!^^

Chapter:1-Mr Lonely (Forever And Always)

I'm still waiting for the day when my tears can freely fall, when my chest aches from all the shit I've been though, when I don't have to feel as though I'm nothing at all. I'm sick of feeling invisible, I just want to be found. Is it that hard?


full cr:  seonqyeols

Forever And Always: by Seonqyeols

"Bye!" I shout over at him. Wow, Sungyeol, this is your 37th attempt at talking to him, and 37th failure. 

Forever And Always

Today is 13 March 2011, it's Kim Myungsoo's birthday. Can't he at least smile on his birthday? Stupid little jerk.

I study him instead of looking at the work on my desk: he's sweeping his bangs off his eyes, lips making subtle movement as if he's talking to himself. I wonder just how can somebody pull off being cold and distant all the time. 

 A voice in my head nags at me: the quietest people have the loudest minds. So does Myungsoo think alot, but he just doesn't know how to express his thoughts? Or is he just doing this on purpose to get everybody's attention? 


 "Forever And Always", by  seonqyeols

Like A Guardian Angel

Sungyeol hesitated, afraid to make Myungsoo angry again. "Why is your heart hurting?"
"Mm...nah, I was just thinking about something when suddenly... it started to hurt." I was thinking, what if we would go our different ways one day and leave each other. I would miss you. That was he really wanted to say.


"Like A Guardian Angel", by  Infnt7Inspirit

Even If You Din't Know -- Teaser 1

'I speed up my pace, and run all my heart, as if I could forget him, as if the pain would faded away. Without noticing, tears filling up my eyes. Should I forget him? Am I able to leave him? I began to sob harder as I thinking about him. He's in the hospital now, which mean, I'm a cruel person if I leave him now.


    But, I couldn't stand this. This feeling keeps growing deeper. I.. just don't want to ruin our friendship. The doctor said, he might lost all of his memories. My heart's ache at the moment when he utter those words. He gonna forget about me too? But, it's an opportunity to drag myself off from his life, right?


    Maybe everything is going to be better if I'm not there, not around him, not beside him.'


Here I am right now, years had pass. I don't even believe that I leave him. I moved to other school. I told his mother to never mention me when he woke up. It's dumb, right? I leave him, a fact that I couldn't even believe. 


  I need him, I always do. I love him,always and forever. Because of that, I have to leave him, I don't want him to get hurt or disappoint of me.

Let's share!^^

So..lately I've found a nice and interesting fic! Infinite OTP of course :)
!!! -----> Paradise

It's coming!

My ideas keep coming! HoYeah!!!
   Maybe I will just finish up my FF, "Time Will Tell My Love"~
Because..I'm going to plan a new one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  So excited about it!^O^ I will post some teasers soon!!! yay~


Well...I hope it's not that angst...? huhu~
   of coz..its MyungYeol ._. hehe :)


let's think about the title.... "Even If You Didn't Know"? 
well, I'll think about it ~hehe
the theme... -To be continued- LOL

The One I Love

I forgot when it started

I don't know why I'm like this

A day seems so long

And doesn't seem to have an end

How does another morning come?

I don't know

I can't do anything

While not doing anything

I look at the slow time

Where are you?

What are you doing?

Because I only think of one person

I know I shouldn't be doing this

I know that I can't love you

My confession will make you go through more pain

I know

Even though I know

I can't do anything

I can only think of you

If I close my two eyes

Or open them again

I can only think of one person

The memory I can't erase for one second

I just think of you

I can't do anything

While not doing anything

I look at the slow time

Where are you?

What are you doing?

Because I only think of one person

I only think of that one person

Myungsoo-"Time Will Tell My Love"

Finally!!!!!

So~~~~!! finally I got the theme sonG~ haha^^
  for my Fic~! you see.. I've already found for Sungyeol..
now, I've chose for Myungsoo =) It's Suju- KRY's "The One I Love"
  I will explain the reason soon^^..
and... the plots.... changed again!!hoi~hehe^^
           :) to a better one hahahaha
First, I will post the lyric =)

Sungyeol sniffs a little and I realise that he's trying his best not to cry too, which makes me feel like a goddamn failure.

Hope Is A Dream That Doesn't Sleep

It doesn’t matter if I get lonely, 
Whenever I think about you,
A smile will flicker onto my face.
It doesn’t matter if there are hard times.
 Whenever you are happy,
My heart will be filled with joy

The world that I walk through today,
Even if it's not easy, if I close my eyes, I could see your face once again
The dreams that continues to run around me,
Has turned from my side to you

Everyday my life is like a dream,
Being with you and loving you has allowed me to stand firm again

To me, the precious memories of our happiness
Will stay warm even during hard times
Hope my dream that will not fall asleep.

Like a shadow that's by my side,
Silently you come to me
Regardless if I'm in pain, whether there are lonely days,
You come to me

I don't mind if the world will make me cry,
Because you are always with me
Like dust, will memories dissipate?
I smile a little, just to comfort my own heart


Everyday my life is like a dream,
Being with you and loving you has allowed me to stand firm again

To me, the precious memories of our happiness
Will stay warm even during hard times
Hope my dream that will not fall asleep.

Numerous times, I have stagger and fall
But I continue to stand back up
There's only one heart of mine
During hard times, you become my strength 
Forever my heart will face you


I will swallow all my hurt,
And show you my smiling face
From now on, I will not be in pain anymore


Regardless of what, I'll embrace hope and realize our hope together
I'll try calling out to you in a place where I cannot reach
I will use my whole heart to love only you.

 There's a reason why I post this song lyric^^~ well, I think this song really related to my FF, "Time Will Tell My Love"..... it's the moment when Sungyeol unsure of his feeling towards Myungsoo. Even though he feels hurt, there's sweetness inside, whenever Myungsoo's with him. 


  After what had happened before, after the moment when they knew each other,that they're used to be best true childhood friends, Myungsoo swear to protect him, no matter from a distance or close (as they're best friend). So, the song by Kyuhyun, "Hope Is A Dream That Doesn't Sleep" actually describes Sungyeol's feeling~^^


Especially these line "Like a shadow that's by my side,
 Silently you come to me
 Regardless if I'm in pain, whether there are lonely days,
You come to me"


The situations that happen in those lines really affect his friendship feeling towards Myungsoo, and slowly,..well, fastly? he forget about Woohyun,completely..

     Then suddenly all those happy memories I've shared with Sungyeol flash in my head. Then I realise that I've been tiring myself out not only to stop myself from thinking about everything: it's also because I'm trying to run away from the fact that I might lose him.

I. Can't. Lose. Sungyeol.

Taking in a deep breath, I turn around and run towards the cafe, tears filling up in my eyes.

-Myungsoo- (Forever And Always Chapter 21: " And The Reason Is You")

 All credits to : Seonqyeols

Forever And Always

     Everything stops. My heartbeat, the world around me, time. It just stops. Freezes. And it's suffocating me. I can't breathe, it's like I'm about to die or something. I can hear Sungyeol's voice asking me if I'm okay but I can't bring myself to respond. 
   
Come on, Kim Myungsoo, get back to reality, Yeollie's waiting for you to say something.


"Forever And Always" by seonqyeols  Chapter: 20

Forever And Always

 I need him and I can't hurt him. I can't just throw him away, that's the thing he's afraid of.

Just like how he needs to hold on to me, I need to hold onto him too. 

            By: 

 seonqyeols

 "Well, let's just say he's immature, a stupid choding who can never fail to make me laugh every single day, super cute but doesn't have abs. He screams alot, and at a really high pitch, like me. He's foolish but you can count on him to cheer you up on your saddest days. His smile... it's beautiful."

"Forever And Always" by seonqyeols

I guess if you're exhausted you can get your mind off more depressing things.

NEW FF Plan~hehe^^

Assalamualaikum^^
Alhamdulillah,today Imma super fineeee~!


  Okay2~ as you can see by the title, I have some plans for my upcoming FF^^
well..even I still didn't have a ending for my debut FF =__="
umm.. you know..my mind is..complicated~hahaha
   I have bunch of ideas!!! but I sometimes failed in arranging the plots..heeee
but, even the upcoming plots always change, it always better than the previous one^^


 So, about the upcoming FF~ I think I've decided about the tittle and plots~ ._.
remember my debut FF's first title? yep, "Our Endless Love" the one that I changed to "Time Will Tell My Love". 
   Well,I decided to make sequel for "Time Will Tell My Love" and the title would be "Our Endless Love"..heeeeeeee~^3^  


        Well,at first I thought I would make many chapters for "Time Will Tell My Love" ~
but,.. I don't think I should since it's my debut FF^^ so, just make it natural and simple but  interesting as possible...
 SO,who will be the 'cock-blocker'? haha XDD well.... maybe there's no..but let's make a big misunderstand!!! which involved Woohyun for MyungYeol~ 


   It's hurt right? why we have to hurting each other like this? why it has to be this complicated? You're a coward! just tell me at first..it's too late now.. 

Time Will Tell My Love

I finally got the poster^^ Thanks to Flaries And All Nice!!!^O^